Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Gardening and waiting....


I know that my time is going to come. So many of my friends who have went through infertility and many of you have went on to become mothers and it makes me hopeful yet leaves me wondering when it will ever happen. I am going to the fertility clinic in a few weeks, i have switched clinics to a new dr. The only treatment we have ever done is clomid and provera and now I am finally able, financially to go and have some stuff done. I am hoping and praying that whatever I have done will work. I am excited and scared to. But I have been doing good, my grandfather has healed up from the accident we were in and we have been enjoying this weather. I bought a house right next to my granparents. We have a lot of land and so we have a garden, my granpa has always had a huge garden each year as long as I can remember. I am happy where I moved because i grew up right beside of here. It was my great uncles house and they decided to move so i jumped at the chance to buy it!! We have already planted our peas, onions, poatoes "taters lol as I call them" we planted our cabbage, broccoli and soon we can plant our corn, beans, cucumbers, tomatoes, and bannana peppers. last yr we tried watermelons and they did not taste very good. So I will just have to buy all the watermelon I eat (which is usually alot) last night we built a fire and roasted hot dogs and marshmallows with my little cousin I babysit, who I call JitterBug. Me and Anthony love to go fourwheeler riding. He works in the coal mines and he finally got put on day shift so I am soo happy I get to spend every evening with him. I hated when he worked at night. So I am staying busy and being happy.

Monday, February 7, 2011

I want to.......

I want to be able to experience so many things. I cant imagine how it would feel to look at my baby on the ultrasound, to hear a heartbeat and know that it belongs to me. I want to hold my baby for the first time, I want me and Anthony to experience the joy of being parents together. I would love to paint and decorate a nursery in blue or pink. I want to have a baby shower and know it is for me this time. I want to bring my baby home for the first time. I cant imagine how it would feel to hear my baby crying and wake me up at night. To rock my baby back to sleep. I want to see Anthony being a father, I know he will be a wonderful daddy. He is such a loving person that loves kids, I can hardly wait. I want to go into the baby section when I go shopping and be able to but something for my own child, and not feel like my heart is breaking everytime I go by this section. I want to teach my child about the Lord, and take it to church. I want to watch it grow and become the beautiful person it was meant to be. I know that God is able to do this, and I really want this dream of mine to come true. Sometimes I dont know how much longer I can wait. I just really really want this.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

My Help from the Lord

I have been having a hard time and the Lord has really helped me so much. Me and my grandparents were in an accident and my papaw got hurt pretty bad. He is doing better now but he is still in a lot of pain. He broke six of his ribs and injured two more, he had to have over 60 stitches in his head. I am so happy that he is doing better. But please keep him in your prayers. I am doing better the cuts on my feet have healed up wonderful. I hope that all of you are doing good, I have not been on here in a long time.Soon good news: My nephew is growing and is the most handsome little boy ever. One of my best friends who have gone through infertility with found out she is pregnant with miracle #2 and without taking any fertility treatments.We were so shocked and I am so HAPPY for her!!!
Alicia, if you read this let me know how you are doing.